Money Crap

It looks dummy. You can get it freely, now most of them make it paid. What a life!

Outsider

I know, we are coming from different side of world. You know my attitude, I know your. Don't change anything, coz I understand. Am I try to pretend? I am not. I feel like the outsider when you do that. Like I don't know anything about you, like I never on your side. Don't change your demeanor...

When The World Not Go Round

When breath cannot fill up your lung, and tears are not even run down...Miserable, You don't know what happened right?

Z

I hate but love. Snow...Snow....please stay in this December. Please alive. I call your last name, it is beautiful, it's white, it's cold. Tell me what should I do. I stay here, musing by myself. Crying over in the corner, none know, hushing the wind. I don't want this life. Let me free, I will do, even I have to crawl in the frozen snow. Please coming....

Time on My Mind

I promised to someone, because its important I listed it on my phone to remain. It was a week ago when I make it. Now, it's the time. 11.20 am. I was ready, gets clothes, having lunch, all is good. I walk slowly, since I go a half early.

But, I see him waiting in bored, with angry face. Maybe something bad happened?
"What happened?"I asked her
"What happened you say.... I've been waiting for a half hour. What the hell you doing??"
"What??" I open my phone. It must be 10.20 so I was wrong. I just laughing for my stupid
"Sorry..... " Ah....now it's going hard to speak.

Broken Heart

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............I don't know how it feels.Why are they always name everything?  Why it called broken heart...why it's hurt?

Ok! I know..I know...I will not get him, I will not. I am too much, right!!

Hold On

A minute goes to hour. I don't even hear your sound. The sun goes down, leave red line in the west and smoky pink in the other side. I want to step back and never come to you...I want to make this today a goodbye. So, it is not the last or I never ever say goodbye...

Heart Beep

It sound croak...croak...inside your head echoed to your heart. Your knees tremble. Your teeth creak so painfully to heard. Suddenly, whirr.., the wind blow your hair whispering lullaby. Thud....thud....thud......you die.

Go to Dying

I remember when I remember but I lose it a lot. Dying. It is not something complicated. It just the door to the another way. There's must be another way, isn't it?

Little Crazy

I don't know what's on her mind. You are really good enough for me, but you are not think so. In other side that's good, but don't be tired to think about anyone else. No....! I mean it is good to be jealous. I love going crazy with you, dear.

I promise we can go together; December 25-28, 2014. Somewhere that you called 'thrive'.

Don't Look Weak

Someone told me to be silent when I restless. Stop telling what I have been done, that none don't suppose to know.
"That make you look so bad" She wiped my tears.
"It is all your secret nor I don't have to know" I looked at him unbelievably. 
"I don't understand" I said, trembling.
"I have to go. Take care yourself" I sat on the ground, so down. I could not even call her back.  She disappeared.
 

Dear Friend

Are you joking? It is not fun instead hurt you...Do you feel lonely?

A Song For Nobody

I know you like to listen, even you don't know how to be hear. This is a song for you. You have your own tune, right? Here the lyric: Nobody listen!

Oh...

I can see love on your eyes, bit me

You just deny, push me away

Make me understand,

What are you against with?

Look me back, 

Don't even try to turn away

Coz I love you

Don't hate yourself

Coz I fall in love with you

Don't hate yourself

I can see love on your eyes, bit me

You just deny, push me away

Make me understand,

What are you against with?

I am dying

Please, make me understand,

What are you against with?

 Is there something wrong with love?

A Driver

It was Monday morning. I went to station so late. A conductor helped me to bring my stuff. A driver was already in her set. A minute, we left. The driver was young, with blonde colored hair. He chewed a bubble gum while smoking while talking. What???

Just for Ice Cream

How could you run like a crazy. Stop the car like that just for an ice cream? I worried.....

Tears

I have a lot of tear. It is so relieved. And life became more light. I can stand still and laugh with bits. I have dare to listen what they say, and face everything that possibly happened in this life. It must be so because tears wash away for you. Oh...listen! How lucky is it!

Confused

I pulled the time to the past when I cannot say what giving up is. Ah....that was good. I just...

He is.....

I think I have same frequencies with him. He is good looking. Stand in the last line, while I in the front of all. I try to understand why. Why I have a look for him. They all looks so serious, that so him. Hwa...this feeling like bunch hugs. I cannot stand  because it is to hard. Maybe it cause he look like me a lot. So I worry....

Horse

I love horse, it is the time when i see people enjoy ride in in the stadium. Strong, brave, handsome, that's all. I imagine that I own a district with horse as transportation, and a sunflowers gardens in the south and bees live stock a blue seas outstretched on your eyes. I sound perfect. 

Take It!

I just heard. It is so hard but that's all what I heard. It makes suffer suck the bone, the energy, the heart.  Thinking HIM makes me more better than what happened in this world.

BUT

I don't know, but when the truth coming. I feel suffer that I have to change, things that I believe it is true is wrong. I know, but nowadays  I still make many reason to make it possible. Sooner or later, I know I was wrong but. BUT..BUT...BUT...why this word tagging along. I hate myself! I don't like BUT!

Congrats!

A lucky who think and change, and it;s just a world.